It has been a while since ive last updated. This liquid diet has to be the hardest thing I've ever done mentally, emotionally, and physically. I fight with myself on a daily basis... about how a sub from subway couldnt possibly make me gain all my weight that ive lost back... could it?! *Sigh* I almost hate shaking that little box with 8oz of chalk inside... and drinkng it. But I only have 3 more days to go until my big day.
So far ive lost 9.5 lbs... according to MY scale. I am super excited about that!
I have been reading on Lapbandtalk.com more than i need to be, freaking myself out. I am going to go grocery shopping tomorrow, so i can get things i need for my post op diet. Its a shame that grits and yogurt excite me! lol. Even some mashed potatoes... or pureed meat loaf! wowwww... i am drooling at the thoughts.
I got a good job offer last thursday. My neighbor offered me a job working as her assistant at a middle school as a para educator for the handicapped children. Normally I would decline, because of the business attire... and afraid of a new wardrobe. But by the time summer is up, I should be a couple sizes smaller. I HOPE! Currtently I am a size 18. I look forward to the waist size and also bra size dropping, and by bra size i mean the size around. I would like for my baby girls to remain the same size lol.
Today I took my dad to see Iron Man 2. Good movie. Def a male thing. Just wait till he has to take me to see twilight - eclipse. haha.
Well, if it dont rain... i plan on doing my walking. These dogs are ready to get out of the house.
*whispers*... just three more days!
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Day 7! One week down, another to go!
Today was a good day. Work went very smooth.. the kids were great. I got off at 11:30am, and came home and took a nap! That was enjoyable. I woke up, and got the urge to clean my closet. Its amamzing what such a small space accumulates over time! Geez. I had my whole room in disaray. I shall upload pictures to prove my point. I decided I was going to pack TJ's gifts/cards up and put it out of my sight. I am very proud of myself. After cleaning out my closet, it was time to go on my walk. I walked 30 mins with the girls,I couldnt leave them behind. They need to get out too.
Oh yes! I knew i was forgetting something. I called my doctor's office today and spoke with my nurse. She really erked a nerve. I told her I only lost 3/4lbs within 7 days. She told me if i didnt cheat on the liquid diet that I would lose the weight. I told her that I havent had not ONE morsel of food enter my mouth. She did not believe me. She told me i need to stick to it! Uhm... how encouraging? Anyhow, I concluded that I need to stop drinking broth. It has over 800mg of sodium and salt retains water. So maybe I can shed more this week... I pray I can. I want this surgery... and It makes me mad that my nurse thinks im cheating whenever I WANT TO SO DAMN BAD.
I am sitting here enjoying Tyler Perry's Meet the browns on tv... and sipping a shake on crushed ice. Thanx Ashley for a great idea. I love it for my last shake of the day.
Closet:
Oh yes! I knew i was forgetting something. I called my doctor's office today and spoke with my nurse. She really erked a nerve. I told her I only lost 3/4lbs within 7 days. She told me if i didnt cheat on the liquid diet that I would lose the weight. I told her that I havent had not ONE morsel of food enter my mouth. She did not believe me. She told me i need to stick to it! Uhm... how encouraging? Anyhow, I concluded that I need to stop drinking broth. It has over 800mg of sodium and salt retains water. So maybe I can shed more this week... I pray I can. I want this surgery... and It makes me mad that my nurse thinks im cheating whenever I WANT TO SO DAMN BAD.
I am sitting here enjoying Tyler Perry's Meet the browns on tv... and sipping a shake on crushed ice. Thanx Ashley for a great idea. I love it for my last shake of the day.
Closet:
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Frustration! - Day 6
OOOOOOOOOhhhh my gosh. Today has been an emotional rollercoaster.
Okay. Lets get the negative out of the way, so the last thoughts out of my mind will be positive. Deal?
1. I get to work and i swear my co-worker is hairbrained sometimes. Gotta love her. She didnt put the outdoor trash cans in the bins, so the animals had a ball strowing garbage everywhere. Which was my duty to clean at 6am.
2. My lovely co-worker forgot to take the trash out on the back porch EVEN AFTER i wrote a note for her, and taped it to the back door... so garbage was everywhere out back. Which i DID not clean up. I left that for her.
3. I realized that I have 16 tied dyed shirts... and I have 17 kids. So frantically i made another tie dye shirt.. and dried it using an iron. Which only took an hour. By this time its 7am and more kids are rolling in.
4. We get all the kids loaded and ready to go ... we are on the road... and my supervisor forgets the money lol. So Who went back for it??? Yep. You guessed right. Me.
5. Lunch time comes. I take time out to drink my LOVELY shake.. (please know that is very sarcasticly typed)... and i come back in. Pizza Hut pizza for the kids. Guess who is the hander-outter?? lol... Yep. Me.
BUTTTTT... IT GETS BETTER. No forreal... im about to switch off to the positive. *Lets see which one out weighs the other*
1. The field trip was a major success. I loved seeing the kids smile and laugh.
2. The kids loved the shirts that they created and dyed themselves
3. Everyone was safe, and all went smoothly... kind of lol.
4. I DIDNT CHEAT ON THIS LIQUID DIET MESS!!
5. I got off work early, 1pm.
And i cant really think of much else. So i guess its even.
Life after work has been okay. I am kinda bummed out because of the lack of weight i am losing. I figured after 6 days that id lose more than 3-4 lbs. After speaking with my band buddy, Ashley, we concluded I am probably retaining water. Esp with my monthly on the way. I am going to call the nurse tomorrow and talk to her.
I went for a walk today... 30 mins was all my dogs could handle in the heat. I think I will start going alone... I'll get more done that way. I ended up carring Precious because she just sat down and looked at me crooked. lol.
My Girls. Precious (the older larger dog), Rayah (Small dog), and Smelly Cat
All in all... today is concluding... which is another day down and another day closer to surgery and FOOD! haha.
Okay. Lets get the negative out of the way, so the last thoughts out of my mind will be positive. Deal?
1. I get to work and i swear my co-worker is hairbrained sometimes. Gotta love her. She didnt put the outdoor trash cans in the bins, so the animals had a ball strowing garbage everywhere. Which was my duty to clean at 6am.
2. My lovely co-worker forgot to take the trash out on the back porch EVEN AFTER i wrote a note for her, and taped it to the back door... so garbage was everywhere out back. Which i DID not clean up. I left that for her.
3. I realized that I have 16 tied dyed shirts... and I have 17 kids. So frantically i made another tie dye shirt.. and dried it using an iron. Which only took an hour. By this time its 7am and more kids are rolling in.
4. We get all the kids loaded and ready to go ... we are on the road... and my supervisor forgets the money lol. So Who went back for it??? Yep. You guessed right. Me.
5. Lunch time comes. I take time out to drink my LOVELY shake.. (please know that is very sarcasticly typed)... and i come back in. Pizza Hut pizza for the kids. Guess who is the hander-outter?? lol... Yep. Me.
BUTTTTT... IT GETS BETTER. No forreal... im about to switch off to the positive. *Lets see which one out weighs the other*
1. The field trip was a major success. I loved seeing the kids smile and laugh.
2. The kids loved the shirts that they created and dyed themselves
3. Everyone was safe, and all went smoothly... kind of lol.
4. I DIDNT CHEAT ON THIS LIQUID DIET MESS!!
5. I got off work early, 1pm.
And i cant really think of much else. So i guess its even.
Life after work has been okay. I am kinda bummed out because of the lack of weight i am losing. I figured after 6 days that id lose more than 3-4 lbs. After speaking with my band buddy, Ashley, we concluded I am probably retaining water. Esp with my monthly on the way. I am going to call the nurse tomorrow and talk to her.
I went for a walk today... 30 mins was all my dogs could handle in the heat. I think I will start going alone... I'll get more done that way. I ended up carring Precious because she just sat down and looked at me crooked. lol.
My Girls. Precious (the older larger dog), Rayah (Small dog), and Smelly Cat
All in all... today is concluding... which is another day down and another day closer to surgery and FOOD! haha.
Monday, May 24, 2010
Day 5
Well, I didnt get a chance to post yesterday due to company showing up last minute and getting in late. Not complaining though; I needed to get out and have fun. My neighbor, Patricia, had her God daughter, Ashcia, come down a couple months ago from Flint MI. Ashcia has a girlfriend, Dawnica, and we all hung out while they were here. Well, Dawnica is back and she came over to say hi with her sister, Dana, and her God sister, Alicia. We hung out for a couple hours down stairs... and they invited me to go to Golden Corral with them. What a bummer. I explained to them what I was doing, and Alicia said I am beautiful the way I am. How sweet. I wish i felt that way about myself. Then they invited me out to the beach... Clearwater. Im always down to go to the beach! Esp to see a sunset. Yes! So they came back at 6pm. I made sure to bring me a shake and some water. We got down to the beach... and it was fantasic. Not too hot. As we were walking we figured out really quick that Alicia is scared of the seagulls. A little boy was flying a kite that swooped too low to her head (which was the shape of a bird) and Alicia took off running and dodging. In return, that sent Dawnica, Dana, and I into a frenzy. Needless to say we cleared a whole sidewalk in 2 seconds. Geez! Alicia hid behind me the whole time we walked the pier. Poor thing lol. We then decided to go walk in the water and enjoy the sunset. While walking and looking for seashells... we spotted a dolphin! It was super close to shore... that was neat. The girls said it was a shark. Poor babies. They never been to a beach... nor watched the sunset. I guess i should blame it on their age. Dana - 18. Dawnica - 19. Alicia 20. Me - 25. I am the elder. I enjoyed myself though. Here's a couple pictures. They were took from my cell phone, so the quality is not that great... but the point is... beauty.
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Day 5
Not too much has gone on today... I went to work very sleepy from lack of sleep the night prior. I've decided to pick up the 3rd book from the twilight saga bc the movie is coming out at the end of the month. Very excited about that. I came home and took a small nap. And been reading since. I decided to hop online and check my email, and also to update here. Tomorrow shall be interesting. We are taking the kids on a field trip to backyard adventures for their end of the year field trip. :)
Day 5
Not too much has gone on today... I went to work very sleepy from lack of sleep the night prior. I've decided to pick up the 3rd book from the twilight saga bc the movie is coming out at the end of the month. Very excited about that. I came home and took a small nap. And been reading since. I decided to hop online and check my email, and also to update here. Tomorrow shall be interesting. We are taking the kids on a field trip to backyard adventures for their end of the year field trip. :)
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Wow.. First entry
I made this blog basically to vent... because I am going through an emotional time in my life. Emotions can be written through the keys on my keyboard and present themselves in a orderly fashion on this screen. ....Or so i hope. Emotions are not always orderly.
Well, first and foremost. I have decided to take the journey of being banded. Lap Band. This will help me live a healthier lifestyle as well as keep weight off.
5/10/10- Consultation with my doctor
5/10/10- Phych Eval
5/19/10 - Dietitian
5/20/10 - Started my 2 week liquid opti fast diet
6/1/10 - Pre-Op
6/3/10 - Surgery Date
Today makes day THREE of the liquid diet and I am doing much better. The first two days were EXTREMELY hard. I never endured hunger pains like those in all my life. I was so ready to throw the towel in and quit. Help from fellow banders on lapbandtalk.com and also family .... kept my head high. Today being day three... its a little easier. I am not feeling the extreme discomfort any more. This excites me. I am excited to know that maybe this 2 week liquid diet will be what i need to teach me a new lesson in life. I do not need food to live. I can live off of opti-fast, chicken broth, sugar free popcicles, and jello. o0o sounds so enticing huh?
Today i took dad to see Shrek 3 at IMAX in 3d. He loves IMAX. So do I. It was a great movie. I love all the shrek movies. I am super excited to know that Twilight - Eclipse will be in imax. It wont be 3d... but the huge 6 story screen with edward, bella, and jacob... whew! Cant ask for better. haha.
Thinking: A shower and a book sounds really good right now.
Goodnight.
Well, first and foremost. I have decided to take the journey of being banded. Lap Band. This will help me live a healthier lifestyle as well as keep weight off.
5/10/10- Consultation with my doctor
5/10/10- Phych Eval
5/19/10 - Dietitian
5/20/10 - Started my 2 week liquid opti fast diet
6/1/10 - Pre-Op
6/3/10 - Surgery Date
Today makes day THREE of the liquid diet and I am doing much better. The first two days were EXTREMELY hard. I never endured hunger pains like those in all my life. I was so ready to throw the towel in and quit. Help from fellow banders on lapbandtalk.com and also family .... kept my head high. Today being day three... its a little easier. I am not feeling the extreme discomfort any more. This excites me. I am excited to know that maybe this 2 week liquid diet will be what i need to teach me a new lesson in life. I do not need food to live. I can live off of opti-fast, chicken broth, sugar free popcicles, and jello. o0o sounds so enticing huh?
Today i took dad to see Shrek 3 at IMAX in 3d. He loves IMAX. So do I. It was a great movie. I love all the shrek movies. I am super excited to know that Twilight - Eclipse will be in imax. It wont be 3d... but the huge 6 story screen with edward, bella, and jacob... whew! Cant ask for better. haha.
Thinking: A shower and a book sounds really good right now.
Goodnight.
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